How many of us have tried to bargain with God?
“Dear God, there’s this guy that I love and if you make it so we end up together, I won’t ask for anything ever again.”
“God, I have this important job interview tomorrow. If you help me get the job, I’ll get better at going to church.”
“Lord, if you heal my mom, I promise I’ll be a better person. I’ll do whatever you ask, just do this for me please!”
I’ve prayed a prayer or two like these myself. Inevitably, I didn’t get my way most of the time. I usually felt like He either blatantly ignored me or just outright said no. I would often feel slighted, thinking things like,
“If you loved me, then why did you ignore me?”
“I thought you wanted me to be happy.”
“Where are you? Can you even hear me?”
It’s taken me years to realize that just because the answer is no, (or no response seemingly, which is essentially still a no.) well it doesn’t mean He didn’t hear me or doesn’t care. What it means is that He has other things planned for me, better things than I could have ever imagined.
Patience isn’t a strong suit of mine. He’s sure tested me plenty over the years. Sometimes it’s hard to fathom that my stressful moments and heartaches could ever be a part of His plan. Why would He let His child suffer?
But, His will is good and though it sometimes has taken me years to understand why things happen the way that they do, the truth is always revealed.
Often times we want what we want and when we want it. When God doesn’t follow our plan, it can be frustrating. But, that’s usually when He says,
“This isn’t part of My plan and I know you’ll be upset, but in time, you’ll see why I took you in another direction. Now is the time to wait, listen, and follow the path I’m setting for you.”
His plan and ours often clash, but in the end, which one would you rather use? Me, well, I choose to keep trusting Him. I’ll undoubtedly get frustrated plenty along the way, but He’ll keep reminding me it’ll all be worth it.