Well, the first five months of the year have been interesting. 2014 started out with a car accident. I was trying to stop at a yellow light and my car hit a patch of ice. My car slid out, went over the median, and took down a traffic light. It was so scary. No one was hurt and my boyfriend was able to repair my car. My job ended because my boss was having issues dealing with his business failing and he couldn’t afford the payroll each week. By the time February started, I was feeling pretty rough. Though I still was grateful for the life God has given me. I had a temp. job, but that didn’t last long either. My b/f and I tried to see the bright side of me not working, that I could take care of our puppy and work on her potty training.
I did what I could to be an equal in our home by taking care of Lucy during the day, cleaning, cooking, running errands, etc. I still felt horrible not being able to contribute much. My neighbor did offer me some money to clean her home once a week. It was something and was happy to help her as well because she’d been so busy. Then I was given another temp. assignment, which I am still working. But not long after, I got bronchitis, so badly that it lasted a month. I tried over the counter medicine, but nothing was working. So, finally I gave in and went to a walk in clinic. The doctor knew within minutes what was wrong and got me the medicine that I needed. I am lucky to have such an understanding boss. At the time I was sick, her husband had the same thing, so she said she understood.
All was well, but then this Wednesday on my way to work I got into a bad car accident. It was my fault. I wasn’t paying enough attention. On the off ramp, I noticed the light was green and that traffic was starting to move, but only the cars at the front of the line had moved, which I failed to notice until it was too late. I tried to stop, but my brakes locked up and the next thing I knew, I was breathing in the dust from the airbag. It was a very frightening morning. Luckily, all involved are okay. (The lady I hit slid into a third car, but that woman is okay and her car didn’t appear to have any damage.) Unluckily, my car is totaled and the lady I hit couldn’t drive her car away either. I feel so horrible about all of it. Everyone tells me that I was hurt the worst and since they’re only minor injuries, it’s a blessing because that means I didn’t hurt anyone. But, that lady’s car is so badly damaged. I know that our lives are more important and believe me, I am grateful we’re all okay. I know things will be alright in the end, especially because Doug has been so helpful and supportive. I am beyond blessed to have him in my life and my friends too that have been so wonderful.
I do hope though that with the beginning of June that things look up a bit. I pray for healing, for the ability to forgive myself, for job security, for financial wellness for our little family, and for good times for not only our family, but all in my life. Hello June, please bring with you such joy, friendship, happiness, and love that we can find by opening our hearts and working hard towards our goals.