Tomorrow it will be March 1st. Hmm. It never ceases to amaze me just how quickly time flies. Sometimes when waiting for something, it might feel like time stands still. Then once we’re done waiting and we look back, wow, that much time has gone by? Someone once told me when I was about 16 or 17 that once I became an adult that time would begin to fly by. At the time, I didn’t believe them because it had always seemed that time just dragged on, except for summer vacation. That has always seemed to go by way too quickly, especially when you live in a state that gets a lot of snow and cold days. *laughs*
So yeah, here we are, the last day of February and of 2013 no less. Looking back, how do I feel this month has gone? The month started by bringing my son home for the weekend. It was a typical weekend, typical as things are now. Doug came by and stayed with us, spending some time playing and interacting with my kiddo. We get our alone time when Zach goes to bed. I believe we might have gone bowling that Saturday, to break in our new bowling balls. Bowling is something that is for Doug and I, but it also for Zach and I as well. Zach participates in many sports with his dad, bowling is the one sport that has really been for the two of us. It was just a typical weekend though, just enjoying our time together.
I have also spent much of the month applying for jobs and going on interviews, probably went on more this month than in any other month as of late. I am hopeful that a good job is going to be offered to me soon. I have been busting my butt looking and I just get the sense that my time for things to pan out is coming. I also of course do my usual with Grandma, though this month we added physical therapy and now she finally agreed to use a walker! You have no idea how happy this makes me, how more at ease I feel about everything. I know this is hard for her, but I am glad she sees we just want what is best for her. It’s not easy for me telling her what to do, not when she was my rock for so long, not when she helped raise me, but it needs to be done sometimes. I give her every allowance I can, to let her live her life how she wants to. I step in when I need to, like unplugging the stove when I am not around, making her take her medicine or else she forgets, not letting her drive anymore, etc. None of that is easy, in fact, sometimes it gets very hard for me and for her too, but I am doing what needs to be done to keep her safe, healthy, and out of a nursing home for as long as I can.
The one non-kid weekend was spent like this: Friday was just us, having a movie night here. Saturday, Doug went to work and I did things around here. At night, we went to my friend’s birthday party. We shot pool, listened to some live music, met some cool new people, and had a nice time. We were headed home when a friend sent me a text, asking where were that night, so we met up with him, chatted, listened to more live music, and then headed home to get some sleep. It was a nice weekend.
The other two weekends Zach has been home were the 15th-17th and the 22nd-24th. The 15th was just relaxing. The 16th, we went to our first Admirals game. It was an amazing time for all of us. It was not just a regular game night either, it was a concert night as well. So we got to see REO Speedwagon, which was cool for me because it’s a band I have listened to since my childhood years, thanks to my mom. Zach seemed to enjoy the band, Doug was alright with it, not his favorite, but he does tend to enjoy live music more….so he’ll tolerate it more live than on the radio or c.d. The 17th, my poor kiddo got sick before he had to go back to his dad’s. Watching my kid be sick is never easy. I hate feeling like my hands are tied, so useless. But after cleaning up and such, got him to his dad. He slept the whole way, you know that’s when he’s sick. I came home and relaxed.
This last weekend, we relaxed and had a Star Wars movie night. On Saturday, we went to our friend’s in Hartford. The kids played. We adults played Skip-bo and chatted, it was nice for all of us. We all enjoyed ourselves. The lack of sleep was hard on everyone, but we managed. On Sunday, we got up early and got Zach to his wrestling meet. Zach did extremely well his first round, lost his second to someone more skilled, and barely lost his third….we feel if the second and third rounds had been reversed, Zach would have probably won. He only lost by two points and I can understand the frustration. He really did put in a lot of effort and I can see how far he’s come since he started in January of 2010. I am so proud of my boy. Third place in his bracket is nothing to sneeze at. With practice, hard work, and the support, I feel he’s going to continue to improve. I believe in him, more than he knows.
Doug and I have spent a lot of time together, bowling in league, talking about the future, playing pool, watching movies, exploring together, and become even stronger as a couple and as friends. Watching Zach and Doug form a stronger bond has been wonderful too. This, I feel, has been a fairly good month. I am excited for even better things in March. I am ready, let’s do this!!!!