Life is definitely not a bowl of cherries for me right now.
Though at least some things are settled temporarily. My grandma is staying somewhere that is clean, safe, & that is close by. She’s not happy about it, but she’s accepted what is for the moment. There will be a lot more stress to come with this. We have to gut the house, fix things, and figure out what we’re doing with the place. I know there will be fights amongst certain family members, but perhaps some things just need to be said. I am trying to remain calm, keep the faith that things will turn out alright.
I am still on the hunt for a job, hoping and praying that what I get is good enough for me to get things done for Zach and to hold onto our family’s house. I need something that will allow me to live the life I want, which would be first one that provides for my son in ways that Jason has been able to. Also, I would like to live somewhere that has things like underground parking, central air, etc. Plain and simple, I am tired of struggling. I want to be able to get by month to month without worrying. God has a plan and I am trying to remember that each day. I will get through all of this somehow.
Guys! Oh bah! I don’t even know what to say about that right now. My head is a mess. I am trying to get over someone and on one level, I am doing alright. But then, often when I am alone….visions of him enter my mind and I find that I miss him more than I want to admit to anyone, especially myself. But, I am doing what is best for me at the moment. I am stepping back from him and reevaluating everything. As my friend put it, I should look more for just someone, but the right one….whomever that is and whenever it’s meant to be, I need to again remember that God knows what He’s doing. Eventually, my heart will sort the thoughts out and lead me in the right direction, right?
Well, my friends, this is all for now. I will share more in the days to come. God speed!