I can hardly believe I haven’t posted since last summer! Don’t fret, my friends, I may disappear for awhile, but I am still here. I hope this post finds you well. I have been a busy bee, with my family, business, and just living my best life!
Since I posted last, so much has happened. My adult son was asked to move out. That caused a lot of heartache for everyone, but it was time. Things were not going well here at home and we needed to get some separation. It hasn’t been an easy adjustment for anyone, but I think things are in a good place for us now. He has his own place and is trying to find his way in the adult world. My daughter is thriving in ways she couldn’t while things were so toxic for everyone. My husband and I are less tense and not edge so much of the time, which helps us as individuals, parents, and a couple.
Next month, I celebrate seven years of marriage with my amazing husband! We will be together for 10 years total this October, a decade together!!! In these last 10 years, we have faced so much. We have an amazing relationship, but that’s only because we continue to work together. There have been many days that were rough. We have faced loss, illnesses, injuries, struggles within our family and our own relationship, financial issues, and much more. We have not always liked one another, but the love has remained because we keep fighting for it. I am happy to have seen both my best and worst days the last 10 years with him. He has been my rock through a lot and still is. I battle bi-polar, anxiety, PTSD, OCD, and a few other issues that make it a challenge to get through life, but he stands with me through everything, even when he may not feel like it. He has gone through some tough things and hasn’t always managed them well either, which has made it extra tough on me, but like him, I keep standing with him like he does with me. We are a team. He is not just my husband, he is my partner in life and as corny as it sounds, one of my best friends. I can confide in him and I know he will listen, not judge, and be here for me. He knows he can do the same and I will stand with him. It isn’t about simply finding the one who is right for you, but also the one who you are good for as well.
My daughter will be wrapping up Kindergarten in June. We have just about made it! It has been a rough year at times. She is battling ADHD and anxiety, which has made things difficult for her and for everyone who is trying to help her learn, grow, and thrive. She was recently diagnosed and with the help of her doctor, the specialist assigned to her, the school, and others who have been through it and are being supportive, we are making headway. She is a vibrant young lady, who is so smart, driven, talented, and kind. Her impulsivity and huge emotions can get in the way, but we are all working together to help her get through this. She is not any title assigned to her, she is so much more than that! I believe she will excel in life and find a joy and success all her own as she grows up. We just need to help her find her way.
My son is struggling with his own mental health issues, but he is trying to find his way. He moved into his own place in early February of this year and loves it. He can have the space and privacy he needs, but knows if he wants to be around others, we aren’t far away. He has been writing and drawing a lot, which I am happy to see. He is an especially gifted writer and I hope he does something with that. We used to talk about writing a series together, several times. I hope now that he is older and his skills have developed so much that we will make it happen. I would love to co-write a book with him. Either way, I hope he does something with his talents, because he has so much to say and is good at saying it. I have also learned he has a pretty good voice and since he has been spending a lot of time practicing with pitch, harmonies, and more, that voice is even more amazing. He is like me, a true artist and I LOVE it. (and huge into computers, technology, history, etc.) I want to see him use his creative outlets for not only managing stress, his own huge emotions, and more, but also would love to see him touch the world with his gifts. Right now, he is trying to find his way. I am excited to see what path he will land on. Whatever he does, I believe it will be great.
Business has been booming! This year marks the most weddings I have ever booked in a single year and I am so excited!! (and a bit nervous too!) In 2020, I added my Polaroid booth, day/month of coordination, planning, and officiating to my stand alone services and since then, things have been changing for the better. I used to bundle these services with my photography packages, but I find myself happier now that I have made this leap. Another thing that has helped is being more selective on the clients I book. I used to hire anyone who wanted to book me, if I was available, to bring in more revenue and make a name for myself. That has led to some disasters. I haven’t had a huge amount of drama filled clients, but the ones I have had have made me question everything. I have almost quit several times, because I just didn’t want to deal with the headaches and heartaches. It took my amazing husband to remind me each time that more often that not, my clients are absolutely amazing and that I truly love what I do, so I shouldn’t let a few bad experiences here and there ruin it all for me. I am glad I listened to him and to others who have been so supportive since I began my business in 2016 and started doing weddings as well in 2017. I am thankful for all I have learned, for the fun moments I have gotten to capture and be a part of, the places I have gotten to travel to, and for the wonderful people I have met along the way, both clients and fellow vendors alike.
On a more personal level, I have developed a love for cooking, most especially baking. I never minded it growing up, had fun in cooking class/home economics and learning some basic skills at home or through friends, but I don’t think I ever LOVED cooking and baking until more recently. Since finding out I have a gluten allergy, among others, I have had to explore new ways of cooking and finding ways to be included at things like family functions and by doing all of that, it has ignited something within me. I find that I really enjoy making meals and baking these days. It has become a lot of fun. I like experimenting with new ways to make things as well. I like to add my own twist to standard recipes too, shake it up and make it my own. My passion for photography was dwindling a bit, but the spark came back recently. I think last year was so hectic, it drained me. I needed some time away during the slow season and that helped me recharge and find my way back. I have missed writing, so here I am sharing a bit of myself with all of you today. Singing is next on my list! I do it with my daughter and when I hear something I like on the radio, but that’s not the same. I miss doing it for myself and sharing it more. Yesterday, while hanging out with my son, he mentioned that he thinks our voices go well together, that he regrets not doing karaoke with me at my wedding or vow renewal, and that we should sing together more. That would be fun, just like it is when my daughter and I sing together. I love singing, but when I can do it with others, sometimes it is even more enjoyable. I went for a walk yesterday, after I dropped my son off, and took pictures just for me, as well as let my eyes take in the beauty around me. I found I missed that too, exploring and just taking in my surroundings. I am really trying to work on myself more lately and it feels nice. I also think it helps me be a better mom, wife, friend, businesswoman, and overall person. That would be my little piece of advice to anyone reading this right now, take time for you. Find your passions, make time for them. Get out and enjoy the world around you. Work on yourself. We are never done learning and growing. Find your happy, live life surrounded by it, and share it with others. ❤